I want to let you know that not prioritizing yourself, feeling undeserving of support, feeling like others have it worse, and that you should be able to get it together on your own can be symptoms of trauma.
Many people start therapy by saying, “I know this is long overdue, and I’ve known for a long time that I’ve needed this and just haven’t done it.” That’s okay. I’ll meet you there. Many people say that even after just the first session, they feel better for starting the process and letting some stuff out.
Even just the act of coming to therapy is healing. You’re letting your system know that you’re choosing a different pattern, which will lead to a different outcome, which instills hope, which can be a beautiful, positive snowball effect from there.
Many clients describe the feeling of living with unresolved trauma as going from feeling numbed out to overwhelmed or feeling like a prisoner in their own body. You might be coping by avoiding your own thoughts or feelings, dissociation, over-functioning/staying busy all the time, or by completely breaking down. Clients come to see me when they’re having thoughts like “I can’t handle this,” feelings of sadness, anger, frustration, overwhelm, and their ability to function at work, at home, or in relationships are breaking down.